A lot of our Grrrl Army members probably won’t catch much of this story if you’re outside of Australia, but I’m going to write about it anyway.  In fact, I was going to write a blog about rape culture a week ago, and dropped it on draft because I wasn’t in the right frame of mind to write it at the time.

2017 has been one helluva year.  We all thought it was going to be dookie with POTUS Dick Splash stepping into the role for the next 4 years.  I don’t like to talk poltics because it divides us.  But lets face it- anyone who pushes anti-abortion rights and jurisdiction over a women’s body, is not revered in my book.  Yes President Dick Splash has actually done some decent things, and if you’re a bit of a conspiracy theorist like I am, you’d find that all President’s, no matter what side- are merely puppets.  But that is neither here nor there.

2017 has turned out to be ‘not too shabby’.  Sure, it was the MOST stressful year of my life, to BOOT- between finances with the business, launching our first live event, getting diagnosed with Graves’ disease, living in a brand new foreign country, for the third time in less than 3 years… it’s been intense.  But all and all, with what’s transpired with the #MeToo campaign, I can say that this has turned out to be a launching pad for what is about to be OUR FKN YEAR Y’ALL!

We are NOT putting up with anymore shit!

Or are we?

So let’s get to Jarred Hayne.  Jarred is a star Rugby player down in Australia, who was drafted to come play in the USA for the San Francisco 49ers.  According to the last article I read, it sounds like Jarred was a ‘good ol’ Mormon boy’ up until he signed on with the niners.  To which point he started partying and ‘acting a fool’, if you will.

Within the last 24 hours, Jarred has been accused of rape.  Read the excerpt from an article below:

On the Sunday afternoon, the woman, identified only as “Ms V”, attended the 49ers game at Levi’s Stadium.
After the game, she and friends went to a restaurant for a meal and drinks, and then went to a bar.
Santa Clara County Court documents say that one of Hayne’s friends was texting and messaging the woman to find out which bar she was drinking at with her friends.

Hayne and his mates then joined the group and, as the documents say, her friends “had never seen [the young woman] so intoxicated”.
What happened next is what will be contested in the civil suit.
Ms V says in her court documents that in the early hours of Monday, December 21, 2015 “despite having minimal interaction that night [Hayne] took the now heavily intoxicated [woman] back to his home in San Jose via Uber”.
It was in his apartment the alleged incident took place with the woman who says she had never had sexual intercourse previously.

The documents say she felt pain, and the following morning woke up among bloodied sheets.
She then took “an undergarment” because she allegedly felt people would not believe the incident had taken place, and for police to test.
Through his legal representatives, Hayne unequivocally and vehemently denies the allegations.
Five days later, Hayne was again promoted to the 49ers’ 53-man roster after guard Alex Boone suffered a knee injury.

Hayne announced his retirement from the NFL on May 15, 2016, and joined the Fiji sevens team in hopes of playing in the 2016 Summer Olympics in Rio de Janeiro.
In May 2016, the young woman reported the alleged assault to San Jose police.
The District Attorney’s office informed the young woman that “there was not enough evidence to prove the crime of rape beyond a reasonable doubt”.

The thing that makes absolutely zero sense to me, is the part that says “She then took “an undergarment” because she allegedly felt people would not believe the incident had taken place, and for police to test.”  Which would have been somewhere shortly after the incident on December 21, 2015.  But then the article jumps to some bullshit history about what Jarred’s next moves were, then “In May 2016, the young woman reported the alleged assault to San Jose police.”

OK…  Like what the hell happened between January and April?

And when was “Ms V” informed:  “The District Attorney’s office informed the young woman that “there was not enough evidence to prove the crime of rape beyond a reasonable doubt”.?

And as far as the news outlets in Australia?  The tone from officials in the Football leagues:

“Boys will be boys”, and “let justice serve it’s purpose” and “innocent until proven guilty”.. well in America, you’re guilty until proven innocent. So not sure what the fuck happened there.

This is just typical, bullshit club behaviour- basically.

Reminds me of a time many years ago when my Husband was the CEO of the Gold Coast Titans, the team Jarred was last playing for upon his return back from rapeville, USA.  For a brief stint of 4 weeks, I was the assistant strength training coach for the under 20’s until a reporter found some topless photos of me on the internet, and decided to write an “article” framing me as ‘ex porn star’.   The article of course went into the fact that I’d been raped when I was 17, and that I was a reformed drug addict and alcoholic.  But the article turned out to be a massive “scandal” and caused an immense amount of bullying and slander online.

However- the year prior when a New Zealand rugby player married a porn star, the entire country was congratulating him on his ‘success’.  

At the end of the day, Australia needs to take a page out of Hollywoods book and stop glorifying professional athletes as if they’re some sort of Greek mythical God who cannot be touched.

And for any of you grrrls who’ve been down the soul-destroying path of sexual harassment or rape in your past, hopefully this video helps:


2018 is our fkn year grrrls!  GET YOUR BATTLE CRY OUT AND READY-


Have a look below at my highest “liked” (engaging) post on IG to date from my personal account.  It seems like people in general are really ready to embrace the new dawn of strong, powerful females.


Because comic books 📚 Back before we launched @grrrl_clothing I was working on a concept. “Ms. Leggy”- Her superpower was making any man fall in love anytime they gazed upon Her anaconda legs. A hard, strong personality like The Rock but an animalistic one when it came time to get down to business. Of course she silenced with her legs. Her job was to infiltrate corrupt monopolies where women were mistreated, seduce the highest ranking officials then 💥 🍉💦💀. Not all is lost – @figlesiase and I will get back to the drawing board eventually. The world needs more media that sits ‘outside the box’ so we can create a new box. One where females aren’t the ones getting raped and assaulted. Movies, books, ads, music videos- all media plays heavily into societal beliefs and what we grow up thinking. Look out homeboy- Ms. Leggy’s coming for ya 🐍🦖 And of course we’ll holler @therealstanlee
Hard to believe but I specifically asked @charleslowthian not to airbrush or photoshop my body when shooting. He’s just that good. And yeaaaaaaaaaa “Leggy” needs heels. She may have the world’s deadliest Thighs but they short like Kevin Hart. Plus the stripper heels turn into daggers 🗡
#comics #fantasy #supershero #killer #concept #legslikekortney #marvel #figure4 #anaconda #comicbooks #comicbook #female #empowerment #womenempowerment

By: Prue Houston findingmyfit

Today I’m changing it up a bit and reviewing an active wear brand. But not just any active wear brand. No. This one is so far removed from your run of the mill shopping mall brand its ridiculous! This one spruiks girl power with so much zest it’s infectious. This brand bases its sizes around beautiful body shapes and names them after their stable of powerhouse athletes. Oh and you can forget about seeing photoshopped “fit” models wearing clothes from this brand…hells no. There is no mistaking it, this rebellious brand is taking names and taking no shit, oh and if you don’t like it…um they couldn’t care less…in fact they may even flip you the bird!

This brand is GRRRL Clothing and they are here to change the game!

So yeah I’m a fan. I mean it’s hard not to be, just check out their Instagram or better still follow their MFCEO (I’ll let you figure that one out), the formidable, hilarious and oh so impressive Kortney Olson. It won’t take long for you to jump on the GRRRL Army bandwagon, I promise.

But before you do, let’s talk clothes. And by clothes I mean the awesome tee and windbreaker the team at GRRRL sent me to road test.

Here’s the low down on the gear…first up the G Windbreaker (shown) is the perfect lightweight item to wear outside. Super soft and comfy, I would wear this to and from the gym on cooler days and definitely while out walking. I wasn’t sure if my size estimate was correct but I was happy to say the G Windbreaker fit perfectly. I’m an all over Kortney btw. Side note: GRRRL Clothing sizes are all based on the body measurements of the GRRRL Athletes. You simply apply your upper body and lower body measurements to the body shape athlete closest to you and you’re all set.

Next is the Right to Bare Arms fitted tee. OMG I’m a sucker for a badass tee so I LOVED this one on sight but when I held it up I thought it looked like it would be too small. Can you imagine how happy I was when I popped it on and it fit…perfectly. I had big plans for this tee, so it was important that it felt comfy and looked flattering.

This blog might be the shortest read with the tallest reward you’ve had to boot- As a female entrepreneur, I will always endeavour to bring you tools that have changed my life for the better, and helped me find strength and power in relationships. Not power over someone else, but power over my own reactions and how I conduct myself. Society says that females are “weak and too soft for business”, but I call bullshit. We simply need to teach each other simple tools like the following. Enjoy!  And YES!  Share it!

Business Leadership: How to give someone bad news.

Do you have a parent that you need to break up with? Or a Boyfriend you need to kick to the curb? I mean, let down gently… Or how about an employee that needs to step up their game, but you’re not sure how to let them know in a constructive manner?

Grrrls- I present to you, the sandwich method.

The sandwich method was actually taught to me by one of my best life Teachers, my Husband. In fact, it was in the midst of him telling me that I needed to chill the fuck out, and stop stressing on everything because it was driving him nuts. Bless his heart-

Here’s how the conversation rolled:

“Honey- you are such a beautiful soul. You’re so caring and loving towards everyone and everything. I’m not sure you understand how much I admire you for that. I’ve never met someone with as much heart as you. It’s truly a gift.

However, sometimes our greatest gifts can cause us the most misery. You’re tendency to overthink and over stress details of things, and how others might perceive your intention, is having a bit of an effect on my own personal wellbeing. It’s bringing an extra layer of stress that I’m having a hard time coping with.

But I will say I’ll never meet another person on the face of this planet that I’d cope with as much extra shit for, than you. You’re my soulmate, and I would do anything for you. Not ‘damn near anything for you’, but anything for you. Because there is no one on this planet I admire, cherish and adore more than you.”

You see what he did there?

He started with a positive. He fed in the negative. Then he ended on a positive.

When you deliver information in this format, it allows the other person to take it onboard, and then end on a good note. As opposed to sitting someone down, and saying “Look Jane- you fucking suck. I appreciate you trying, but you’ve gotta do something different”… When you start out with a negative, the other party will shut down straight away. So start with a positive. Then slip in the part that needs addressing, fixing, or negative. Then end on a positive so they feel supported and encouraged to do something constructive, and not in a framework of feeling defensive.

I had a beautiful grrrlarmy member message me over IG and ask me how she could break up with a parent, as she remembered reading a blog months back on my personal brand’s website.

I suggested she could start with a letter first, or move into a convo.
I said something along the lines of:
“Start with the positive, put in the negative, end on the positive- so it sounds something like this: I love you because x, y, and z however I’m working on myself and need to surround myself with positive strong women. I feel disrespected with the way you’ve treated me lately. I will always love and appreciate everything you’ve sacrificed for me, and I hope you find happiness because you deserve it.”

Proof is in the love heart emoji. This shit works.

The reason why I wanted to write this, is this is the simple shit we aren’t taught in school. Come to think of it, effective communication is INCREDIBLY challenging, and yet the most rewarding tool to have in your tool belt. This is why I have insisted on doing a powerful, life-changing keynote on this topic at #GL18 April 28th in Las Vegas. The entire value of your ticket will be worth this one keynote alone, as I’m about to change your life and set you free. Buy your goddamn ticket here if you haven’t already! You deserve it!

Normally I applaud people for going against the grain and calling it how it is. But this, however- is NOT calling on anything but absolute shite. The Mommy Activist isn’t that foolish to produce something so outlandish- she knows people like myself are going to share and help her get exposure. But at this precise moment I’m too upset to not share my thoughts.


She’s claiming that women who’ve participated in #MeToo, and have shared their story of being “a victim”, are in fact NOT a victim and that we (because I was in the MeToo camp before it was a ‘thing’ or a ‘trend’ as she calls it) should have known that our bosses didn’t want us up in their hotel room to discuss giving us a raise.

Let me break it down for you “Mommy”-

At 17 years old- and being clean off meth for 3 Days (despite being the ASB President at a Catholic High School, in a Christian rock band and bound for Stanford… although I knew to “Just say no” to drugs, like my Mommy told me- it didn’t work out that way), I was a lost messy soul. As recommended by my school counselor, I attended a boxing class to meet my new boxing coach to help mentor me and stay off meth.  After all, the root of my wanting to use was because I felt fat, so boxing was a good solution.  Or was it?

Despite the fact my mother taught me “all of the things she teaches her 6 daughters”, I still didn’t know where to draw the line, and at 17 years old let a 72 year old man lure me into his home because I was going to be his “last world champion before he retired”. (I Guess that’s me getting lured into his hotel room to talk about my raise)

Shortly after arriving, he drugged me and I woke up with him inside of me. For the next 10 years I sucked myself down into a world of pain and misery because I believed it to be my fault. I must of lead him on.

This woman claims that those of us in the MeToo camp are prostitutes and not victims.

The most prominent story that comes to my mind is Monica Lewinsky. Imagine being an intern, an impressionable, young woman with the President of the United States showing you attention and interest. Until you’re in that position, and get “sucked” in too close to the fire to be able to use your voice and say no- you couldn’t possibly understand.

The answer isn’t making more women feel like Absolute shit for not knowing the right tools– and in fact I can’t think of a more unhelpful piece of media in my 36 years on this planet.

I am proud of my past. I WAS a victim. But I am NOW a victor and use my experience as strength to help other young girls become grrrls and avoid situations like I’d gotten myself into.

Keep showing up and telling your story and be PROUD of wherever you are in your journey. And remember- “No one has the authority to make you feel inferior without your consent” -E Roosevelt

“Photable”, The app that allows you to edit abs onto photos

I’m LIVID right now sisters.

This morning, I wanted to sit down and FINALLY attempt to spend a little time getting caught up on looking for #grrrlarmy posts, when three posts into IG, I get a sponsored post for an app that allows you to edit your photos. But not only is it a beauty filter, you can add ABS and definition into your pictures! (and I believe tattoos?)

As most of you know, I don’t have a snapchat because the filters drive me nuts. They pose to the younger generation as fun and harmless, when in fact they’re not whatsoever. They have an airbrushing effect so every photo looks flawless. Angelic-like even… Programming us to feel disgusted when we look in the mirror and see something other than what our photos exhibit.

Since I’ve been spending a ton of time in South East Asia, I’ve noticed that EVERYONE, men and boys included, use “beauty plus”. This app allows you to basically airbrush your photos in seconds.

I’ve had a few men reply “who cares?” when I recently posted my disgust.

Allow me to explain-

Most people go on social media with no awareness. Just harmlessly scrolling through posts. What happens is, we look at pictures of false realities, and our subconscious mind (the part of our brain that holds all of our beliefs… beliefs that rule our lives and behaviors) tell us that we are not good enough, because we don’t look that flawless. Furthermore, now with this app that allows you to falsify muscle and definition, aka hard fucking work and sacrifice, people who are trying to ‘get in shape’, will slide further down the hole of ‘not being good enough’ because everyone else is achieving results faster than them, and they cannot get their body to look like that no matter how hard they try.

So many women follow other “fitspo” models as motivation, and this is crippling to their self esteem and self worth. Yesterday, I even found MYSELF- someone I consider to be very “switched on” and “self aware”, feeling like I wasn’t doing enough because I didn’t look like this woman who “had her life together” with all her 750k followers, and a baby on the way, with her stunning, perfect photos. After about 20 seconds, I caught my thoughts on auto-pilot, and analyzed the insanity of them. Then realized I might as well be smoking crack, and how silly of me to think that these photos were real. Once again, everyone, anywhere, can make themselves flawless.

The scariest part of all of this, is that I’m 35 years old. There are girls as young as SEVEN years old with their own social media accounts. Furthermore, do you think that public education has been revolutionized in order to teach young people the reality of ‘social media’. I’m afraid not.
(Fear not… @GRRRL we have a plan and have been working on revolutionizing the public education system since 2013 so young people can be equipped with basic tools to lead a happy life and still use social media)

Now, it might be hard for a man to understand on a deep enough level (although there are plenty of men with eating disorders and body dissatisfaction), but women are fed ads over the course of our lifetime that convey a message reading in order to be beautiful, we must not have sun spots, lines, wrinkles, cellulite or dimples. Aka “flaws”. When they aren’t flaws at all. They are in part what makes us human.

It’s OK for men to be showing signs of aging in ads, but for women, it’s not acceptable.

Men are considered “distinguished” whereas women are considered “past her prime”.

Ads sell us an idea of success: What is beautiful and what is desirable. They are also completely unachievable, and not real.

SO- to take all of this false reality a step further and allow fake muscle, I believe we’ll start to see more men falling victim to the self-hatred parody, as well as women. Instead of using our thoughts to figure out how to better the world, we’ll be swirling around in a pool of self pity thinking that we aren’t good enough, nor will we ever be.

The fact that there are studies now being published that THREE YEAR OLDS ARE UNHAPPY WITH THEIR BODY, should be enough of a red flag and obvious point, to answer your question of “who cares”.

I encourage us all to refrain from using the beauty plus and facetune apps, and at the very least disclose when you do.


In response to criticism of GRRRL in respect of our recent dealings with Cris Cyborg, we consider it is necessary to present the background to what SHOULD have remained a private matter in respect of our commercial sponsorship of Cris.


A little over a month ago we entered into a 12 month sponsorship agreement with Cris, to cover a personal appearance at our GRRRL:Live event in Las Vegas combined with an ongoing 12 month commitment through Cris’s social media channels.


Unfortunately, within a matter of hours of appearing and speaking at our event, Cris was involved in “battery” of another fighter on the street outside a UFC retreat. Cris’s conduct in this regard has broadly been condemned by the fight industry and the organization by whom she is contracted as a fighter.


As a company with representation and brand ambassadors amongst girls as young as 6, we cannot publically condone this behaviour especially as the behaviour is directly in conflict with the messages Cris shared at the event, one of our speakers on cyber bullying and our company message to promote female harmony and unity.


This conduct has the potential to diminish the tireless work by our amazing network of women throughout the world to support female harmony and unity.


As a consequence of these matters, it is with regret that our sponsorship of Cris has come to an end.


We wish Cris well with her continued professional career. And every success in the future.


We are unable to comment any further in respect of this matter as it is now being handled by our legal team.

Recently, I’ve been asked by a number of people, about my process on making the decision to change gyms, or cities, or how I go about making big life calls in general.  It may seem like a lie when I say I am a really private person, but in reality, I am.  I try to not make half statement or bitchy posts on social media and I find that when I do finally announce the big things, people are often surprised.  So I am here to share my own internal monologue and process when it comes to making the “big calls”.

I live my life by a pretty simple motto.  “Be happy”.  As long as I am not deliberately hurting others in my pursuit of happiness, I will continue to search for the things and places that fill me with joy.  When I feel unhappy, I look to make changes within my own means and power.  It’s the basis for all my major life choices in the last 5 years.


It’s not always as simple as identifying that a certain something is making me unhappy and then the next day I make a change and it’s all better.  It’s seldom ever that easy.

One of the biggest things that I think people can relate to is the want or need to change gyms.  I think I have gone against the grain here a little as people tend to really stick with their crew for years and years.  There is absolutely NOTHING wrong with that.  If you are happy and you are getting what you need, why would you want to look for something else.  “If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it”.

Changing gyms has always been out of necessity for me.  Usually it is because I can’t get something that I need in terms of fight matches or coaching, or I am not a good fit for the team that is already there.  It happens.  You can be the greatest person in the world but you probably still won’t get along with everyone.


I try my best to not gym hop.  I like rhythm and routine.  And you build a bond with your coaches and mentors that only develops over time.  If you move gyms frequently, you’re less likely to build these critical, yet beautiful bonds.

At the end of the day, sometimes you just outgrow your gym.  Maybe you have exceeded your training partners and feel like you are not being challenged.  Maybe you feel like you are not being coached correctly.  Maybe you are sitting at home looking at the gym crews Facebook photos of a group dinner you weren’t invited to… again.  There’s always something that creates that need for change.

I personally, try to rectify issues in house.  I pick the best person to talk to, whether it’s a coach, management, or another senior team member who could possibly advise me.  I talk it out, calmly.  Express my concerns and where I am at.  If there is no room for change, and sometimes there isn’t, I know then in that moment that it’s time to move on.

The best case scenario here is that the team bands together to try to deal with the issues at  hand.  I have found that clear, constructive communication goes a very long way.  The thing we need to remember is that, for the most part, coaches, team members and gym owners want their athletes to be happy.  They don’t sponsor you and hope you fall behind.  Chances are if there is something that isn’t working, they want to work with you to fix it.


Then there is a waiting period.  A re-trial if you will.  I try to take a day to chill and re focus and head back to the gym like it’s my first day there.  I try to put my past grievances behind me and see how things develop.

Sometimes, things improve almost immediately – problem solved.  Sometimes things improve and slide back to their original state.  I try to keep communicating and keep putting in the hard work on my end and hope that things find their way to a good consistency.  Maintaining a level of optimism is key here otherwise you just end up being the cranky person in the room that no one wants to work with.

If or when things just don’t improve and I can see that I won’t get what I need, then I know it’s the right call to move on.

I’m pretty confident that I have never willingly walked away from a gym under negative circumstances.  My policy on this is that it’s better to not burn bridges, even if you do want to leave the place screaming and flipping everyone off.  It’s not constructive and you almost never feel better for it.  Thank them for the services they did provide you with and respect yourself enough to know that at the end of the day, they have lost you as an asset.  End of story.

So how do I pick my new gym?


Again – this is a bit of a process, but a much simpler one than having to leave.

First and foremost. Research.  I figure out exactly what I want and need from a gym and research.  When I was looking to make the move from Phuket I spent many weeks on end, researching cities, cost of living, location, access to fights and reputations of gyms.  Granted, this was a little outside the scope of simply finding a new gym, but still applicable.  Location and travel time can really eat into your day, so unless you have the time (and willingness) you will always be looking for something easy to get to.

When I went on my scouting trip around Europe I had a fair idea that I was looking between Italy, Berlin and the UK.  For me these were desirable places for me to live.  Then it boiled down to the gyms and access to fights.  Italy was ruled out quickly simply because of quality and access.  It seemed low.  And I don’t know if I could move to Italy and not get fat (pizza, pasta, gelato – breakfast, lunch and dinner right??).

Berlin and the UK were up there in terms of training styles that I was in need of and access to fights.  While the German WMMA scene is not so developed, it was still an ideal stepping stone for me and I had access to a lot of K1 promotions.

I was in touch with a few gyms in the UK, some failed to get back to me completely which automatically ruled them out for me.  Then I talked to friends.  Reached out to reliable sources for referrals and continued to narrow down my list.

I ruled out the UK mostly due to cost of living and weather.  I enjoyed it there, but the locations of the gyms just weren’t really for me.  Connection wise, they were right up there.


It came down to Berlin.  And I had looked at a number of gyms.  I researched potential areas for me to live in, where I might want to live, what gyms offered what.  Spitfire came up a few times and was recommended to me so I decided to give them a go.

I always try out a new gym first.  This seems like a no brainer, but you would be shocked to hear of the amount of people that get memberships to places they haven’t tried.  Now when I say try, I don’t mean try a single class and see if it’s good.  Try a few.  With different coaches.  For me, I really wanted to see the level and style of grappling at Spitfire, as this is where I need the most work.  I always needed a place that had boxing and K1 style drilling so I can continue to work on my striking. Spitfire offers both.  I got extremely lucky with Spitfire that both of my striking coaches spent time in Chang Mai, living and fighting.  They both understand my background and know why I have the flaws I have, and the strengths I have.  This was a draw card for me.

Did I get what I need?  Is the quality good?  Do I feel safe?  Do I feel like I will be coached sufficiently?  Do I vibe with the crew? Do I feel at home?


This final one is my most absolute.  And I think about it every day when I am at Spitfire or Black Sheep Athletics.  With both of these gyms, I felt at home and myself almost instantly.  Call it luck – I certainly do! – but it matters.

If you are a bit loud and crazy and laugh like a hyena (like me), then finding a place that embraces your type of crazy is so important.  At the end of the day, we should be free to be ourselves and be with those who welcome that.  Both of these gyms have exceeded this for me.


It’s matters for so many reasons.  I spend a lot of my time in these two gyms.  Training, socializing, harassing the staff so they can’t get any work done, playing with puppies and stuff.  The usual.  So why would I choose to be somewhere I don’t feel at home, with people I don’t get along with?  I also find it motivates me.

When I am somewhere I feel respected and valued, as a part of the team or the community in general, I want to give them my absolute all.  In fights, in training, in the way I represent them.  I want to do right by the people who look after me.  I want to get out of bed and go to the gym (even when it’s dark and snowing).  Because I’m a part of something.  And when you are this far away from home, these people become your family.  And THAT matters.


At the end of the day, choosing a gym, a city, a partner in crime – it’s all each to their own.  Don’t expect that what works for your bestie, will necessarily work for you.  Talk to people.  Do your research.  Reach out to people whose opinions you value and respect.  Talk. Talk.  Research and talk.  Find the place where you get what you need, where you feel valued – find the gym that feels like home with the crew that embraces your crazy.

To all those embarking on change – good luck!  And keep trying.  You might not get it the first gym you go to – remember – that’s ok!  You’ll find it.

I know I’m late to the party, as usual. But something needs to be said.
If you think Lady Gaga is fat, you’re a fucking idiot. Full stop-

Apologies to my Grandmother off the bat if you happen to read this. I’ve been doing really well when it comes to curbing my language. However, this topic needs SEVERAL f-bombs sprinkled throughout, so please stop reading if you can’t hang grams.
First off, I didn’t watch the superbowl because A) I’m not a die-hard fan of football and B) I think it’s pathetic that as a country, we have companies and corporations that spend millions of dollars on advertising and putting on a spectacle, when there are SO many homeless veterans (people who fought for your very freedom), women stuck in domestic violence situations, and so on.
Yes! For the love of God it’s “tradition”, and you want to “enjoy your life”, but there comes a time when some traditions need to be broken, and when you need to stop being a self-centred twat and stand up for those who don’t have the capacity to do so. Perhaps go to a junior varsity championship game, or go support your local fucking roller derby team.
Yes, I have my panties in a twist. Perhaps I wouldn’t if there was a female league of sport we could all support to this extent, but fear not, that’s coming.
I digress…..
As I was saying- I didn’t watch the superbowl, so I didn’t see Lady Gaga’s performance live. But what I did see upon awakening this morning, was a truckload of RIDICULOUS comments about her “muffin top”.
Here are a few things to keep in mind for the rest of this year:

1. ALL women have some kind of roll, somewhere. It’s called GRAVITY you moron. You don’t see it or know this to be true, because no woman wants to be NEAR you, let alone come home to your creepy ass apartment, or better yet, the basement of your mom’s house, so how could you know? But at some point in your adult life when you’re able to seduce a woman to take her clothes off around you, you’d realise that it’s human nature.

2. In my experience, women who do not have some amount of body fat on themselves, are 99% of the time, fucking MISERABLE. For a woman to be low enough in body fat to not have any ‘soft bits’, she’s dieting extremely hard, and working out like a fucking freak. I know because I’ve spent a majority of my life in that head space. And it sucks.

3. It’s 2000 and fucking 17- Grow the fuck up

4. Speaking of 2017, welcome to the party. In case you haven’t been introduced to the dawn of the new age, women aren’t here for your approval, and we truly do not give a fuck what you think. When you comment stupid shit like “I was waiting for a guest appearance but all I saw was Gaga’s muffin top”, you look like a SUCH an insecure little cock-sucker who has a 3 inch dick, and drives a ridiculously over-priced lifted F450.
Namaste Bitchesssssssss

It’s been an insanely promising start to the year over here in Berlin and this week, things got even better!

I am so excited to announce Black Sheep Athletics as one of my new sponsors for 2017!


When I moved to Berlin I was pleasantly surprised  by the popularity of Crossfit within the city.  Countless boxes appear on Google searches, all boasting very similar practices and facilities.

After spending some time with Unit 27 in Phuket, I have been spoiled for quality in coaching and facility.  Selling me on a new box was going to tough!

Through networking and meeting other athletes, I had been invited to try a few boxes, all in varying locations surrounding my suburb of residence.  Knowing that most places would be closed over the Christmas and New Year period I reached out to some other boxes to check opening hours and looked for a place to train for a few days.

Black Sheep responded to my email quickly, informing me of the sessions they had available over the holiday period.  I was pleasantly surprised that they were hosting WOD’s almost every day where most others were closed.


I booked in for my first session after my Christmas excursion to Budapest.  I was pretty eager to get moving again as this was not long after my forced rest period from Spitfire.

It was easy to find (even though in a slightly obscure location) due to ample sign posting along the way.

When I made my way to the front door, I am immediately struck by what is painted on the wall…


‘This is my type of place!’.

I felt comfortable before I had even stepped through the front door.  A feeling I welcome in new gyms.

Over the past few weeks I have participated in multiple Crossfit sessions conducted by the main coaches available and I have been extremely happy with the quality of the coaching and the facility is one of the best I have seen in the world.  (Check out the virtual tour at https://goo.gl/8UfYrt)

What I have found in my travels, is that it is relatively easy to go and jump into a Crossfit session, no matter where in the world you are, especially if you already have some base for lifting.  Usually though, I find that once instructors see that I have the basics down the tend to focus on the other students and leave me to my own devices.


While this is not always a bad thing, I have been incredibly impressed by the fact that every coach at Black Sheep is always looking to improve my technique.  Every session I get to make adjustments to my lifts, making me look stronger than I actually am ????  The coaches are always looking to make you that little bit better then when you walked in the door.

It didn’t take me long to realise that this was where I wanted to be.  Just like Spitfire, I was welcomed with open arms and before long it felt like home.


After a few weeks back into it, I decided that I wanted to compete in the Crossfit Games for the first time.  Unfortunately because they begin sooner than expected, I may not be ready to complete the full 5 weeks of RX workouts but I will be attempting the ones where I believe I can.

Most combat athletes have a cross training of their choice.  Crossfit is without a doubt, mine.  It’s not only something that I really enjoy, but the whole body conditioning allows me to move faster and push myself harder for my own training and fights.  My injuries bother me less when I am consistent with my Crossfit sessions as it allows me to work on strengthening my stabilising muscles and build strength in areas where I desperately need it.

A huge thank you to the team at Black Sheep for having me as a part of the team!  I’m extremely excited to get started with the Opens and am looking forward to building myself into a better, all rounded athlete.

If you are in Berlin, or travelling through, stop by and check us out!  You can find Black Sheep Athletics on the web, on Facebook, and on Instagram!

There are a lot of opinions and discussions out there about what it takes to be a champion.  This applies to mostly everything.  When people reference athletes though, the most common topics to come up are things like how hard someone trains, the way they train, how they treat their body, what they do for recovery perhaps, and finally, their mindset.

“Champions make habits, not excuses.”  “Champions go the extra mile/round.”  “Champions don’t quit.”

Do any of these statements sound familiar to you?

I wanted to write about this after seeing the UFC 207 post fight press conference with Amanda Nunes?  Did you all catch it?  It honestly made me love her even more and it spoke volumes to me about her frame of mind and why I consider he to be a true champion.


Now let’s keep in mind how hyped this fight was.  It was rumoured months before the UFC confirmed it and it was high up on the list of fan requests.  Rousey making her big ‘comeback’ after a 13 month layoff and Nunes defending her belt for the first time.  After a victory like this, in environment that encourages smack talk, it would have been so easy for Nunes to be glib or arrogant in her responses.

Some people are immediately commented on Nunes ‘attitude’ post fight claiming she was arrogant in her interview with Joe Rogan in the cage.  I personally felt like she exuded confidence, walking that fine, sometimes indistinguishable line between arrogance and confidence.  At the end of the day though, haters gonna hate.

In the post fight press conference, Nunes fielded some pretty awkward yet obvious questions and I believe she handled things exceptionally well.

When she was asked how she felt about the promotion for UFC 207 being so one sided Nunes said that she had expected it.  She acknowledged that Rousey was the draw card for this fight and went on to say that she had asked Dana White for this fight and she ok with the promotion running in this fashion.  In return, it was in her favour to fight a big name.


Nunes was asked about how she felt about the pay discrepancies and she said she was happy. She didn’t care. It allows her to buy a house, to look after her family and to help her take care of people that have helped her along the way.  It is the largest pay Nunes has received for any fight and she was just happy.  She said ‘I don’t know (how much I will be paid), but it’s gonna be a lot of money’ as she grinned from ear to ear.

She was asked if she felt bad for Rousey and Tate, having potentially retired the two biggest names in the division.  Her response?  ‘There is a lot of talent in this division and people need to see that.  Now people won’t only be talking about Rousey or Nunes.’

When asked about who should be her next opponent, Nunes says she doesn’t care. She will be ready for anyone.

It is so clear that Nunes is a passionate, driven fighter.  I think we all know that the reality is, fighting seldom makes you rich and famous.  Nunes talked and acknowledged that her win was not only good for her, but for the other talented women who have busted their guts getting to the UFC.  Of course she wants some recognition in the future, but I feel like that is just plain logic.

On the opposite side to this, it is no secret that I am not a Rousey fan.  Even when she was famous and on her winning streak I was not a fan.  However, taking 13 months off after a loss (and granted a very nasty knockout) is not, in my opinion, how a champion thinks.  A 13 month layoff is not something (barring surgeries and serious injuries) that I can really comprehend.  Losses are a part of any competitive sport.  And in fighting, when you look at it, when you walk into that cage (or ring), there are only really two possible outcomes (failing a draw which is incredibly unlikely at this level).   You win or you lose.

To be fair, Rousey is not totally to blame.  The UFC have enabled her to behave as she pleases.  They have enabled her extreme ‘time off’ and allowed her to shirk her media responsibilities.  And now, after yet another loss, it is likely she will not return to MMA.


When Tate lost to Nunes, she still showed up to the post fight conference.  Tate being another example of an athlete who has the grace and mentality of a champion.  Rousey was no where to be found after both of her losses.

I’m stoked to see Nunes as champion again.  I think she is the prime example of the hard work, commitment and mentality that it takes to be a champion.  Every athlete is different.  Every athlete trains in a different way.  I guess I would just like to see more champions conduct themselves in the way that Nunes does.

Given the robust talent in the greater Boston area, I am honored and humbled to be chosen as the Eagle Tribune’s 2016 Sportsman of the Year.

The Eagle Tribune has been in my corner every step of the journey. I am grateful for the support and friendship that I have developed with them.

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Thank you all for the continued positivity and love. It fuels me in a way I cannot describe. Special thanks to my mom, dad, and brother, as none of this would be possible without you.

Thank you Crimson Aquatics and Andy Cannon at NorthEast Rehabilitation for keeping me on my “110% game.” Thank you NYOW for putting on a world class marathon swimming event, 8 Bridges.

Thank you to my sponsors: GRRRL Clothing, Vermont Peanut Butter, BRL Sports Nutrition, Knuckleheads Apparel and VOMAX…you have taken my training and performance to the next level.

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